Saturday, January 23, 2010

Psalms 40:1

Yesterday i went an had an upper GI endoscopy and biopsy of my small intestine. Results from the endoscopy came back normal, but will not have the results of the biopsy for a few days to a few weeks. Taylor brought me these beautiful flowers went i got home from my procedure :)

When going into the procedure i couldn't help but think how blessed i am that during all the pain and darkness around the world, here i am, healthy, at an amazing hospital where the people in Haiti should be getting treated. Doctors are treating me for a little inconvenience when there are children needing so much more.

I love John Pipers book, "When the Darkness Will Not Lift". Piper writes about how waiting in darkness doesn't mean we are lost or alone. He quotes Psalms 40:1-- "i waited patiently for the LORD; he inclined to me and heard my cry." David was not afraid to cry. It is a beautiful thing when a broken man cries out to God. One of my favorite lines of his book is, "after the cry, you wait". I love that. We wait. How hard it is to be patient in the hour of darkness. "We don't make peace with darkness, we fight for JOY. Never forget that your security rests on Christ's faithfulness first."

Tuesday, January 12, 2010


Today a catastrophe happened to the Western Hemisphere's poorest nation. Haiti was struck by the worst earthquake in 200 years. Wow.

Our job is to pray and give what we can to those in need.

Pray for the chaos and destruction in Haiti. Pray for those hurting. Pray for protections against further storms. Pray for the strength of the nation as a whole.

If Not For The Storms by: Larnelle Harris

If not for the storms

I couldn't say that You're my shelter

If not for the storms

I would have never known Your strength

I found You so faithful

Through all that You allowed

If not for the storms

There's no way I'd know You

As I know You now.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

My Life Now.

These last few years have been unlike i have ever expected. The Lord's plan was totally different than mine. I started off college exactly like i expected-- i went to Auburn, got involved in a church and other ministries, and joined a sorority-all of which i loved, i wouldn't have had it any other way. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in April of my freshman year and although it was very tough on me i knew i was supposed to still be in Auburn. A few days after the end of my freshman year at Auburn i went with a group of college students from Auburn to Uganda, Africa to serve in an orphanage, and love on and share the gospel with the adults and children there. I absolutely loved it-- i was totally in my element when it came to loving on children. A few days before leaving Africa i got sick, assuming i was sick from traveling and maybe eating something i shouldn't have. After getting back to the states, and being very sick i found out i had intestinal parasites. The summer consisted of being in and out of the doctor and spending most of the time at home. I started feeling a little better but felt very hesitant about going back to Auburn. I couldn't figure out why i felt hesitant about going back because my experience the first year had been the best i could have possibly imagined. I went back to Auburn in time to start rush, but i really felt uneasy and still very weak and sick. I called my mom the first night in tears and very confused-- i knew something wasn't right. She came and picked me up the next day and i went back to the ER to confirm that i had a infection called CDiff which was another infection in my colon. My parents and i decided it would probably be best to wait and get my health steady and then i could go back to Auburn my spring semester. I finally started feeling better but it was the middle of September and i still had a few months before i started school again. Knowing my love for children and preschoolers i got asked to be a intern and two-year-old coordinator at my home church. That was like a dream come true! I started work and absolutely loved it. My moms fight with cancer was still continuing and i was getting to be with her and my family, i was also getting to love on and share the love of Christ with children and i was never more sure that this is where the Lord wanted me to be. It was tough at first because it wasn't the average college lifestyle. I missed my friends and my boyfriend but i was confident that i was making more of an impact on God's Kingdom in Birmingham than in Auburn. I understood that it seemed Crazy-because honestly a year before i would have thought someone was insane for moving home--but i have never felt so confident in the will of the Lord for my life. Please continue to pray for me and my ministry that I clearly share the love of Jesus with them.

Overwhelmed by a Relentless God

I decided to get into the blogging world after i realized how much i NEED to write my thoughts out. I am in such a wonderful but unique point in my life right now and am so excited about the work the Lord is doing in my life. I want to share with you what i am learning and how i am growing in hopes that we can grow together.